Nowadays I prefer a bit of stillness and a lot of silence over anything else.
This year has been quite hectic so far, and it's going to be that way for a while it seems. I'm leaving myself burnt out again and again after grinding a bit too hard, trying to pick up the pace, trying to juggle way too many things at once. Thinking that's what's needed, in order to "catch up".
But sometimes when I want to stay still for a bit, I feel like I'm taking it a bit too slow; for which I'm "falling behind in life", soon after I find myself being a bit too harsh on myself.
So, in the end, even a bit of peace and quiet becomes "torturous", and I find myself back on the path towards burnout again.
In our hectic lives it' important to find a moment or two for oneself lest burnout occurs. I believe it's much easier to hold it off than rectify it once it's happened.
I understand your comment about feeling too slow and that can be a problem, however not slowing down sometimes will probably bring far greater problems. The focus needs to be on the right balance.
It's sad you feel peace and quiet is torturous and I hope you manage to find the balance I speak of because I think you will benefit greatly.
Becca 💗
Balance is exactly what I'm searching for; I'm working towards it day by day, I know I'll get there too, but I guess I'm just tired and "cornered" for now.
A bit more patience and faith in the process is required, so that I can gain control over the torturous "voices" in my head and own my personal space and thoughts.