I am capable, I know I can do a semi-decent job, a better job than most, because I care about kids and people in general.
I might eventually have a child or adopt, children are a blessing and they teach us a lot of things. But I will not have a child to look after my own personal fulfillment
I'm just not willing to take on a child until I know I can help them. The decision has less to do with me and whatever desires that might take less of a priority if a child is made priority, than what it has to do with me having the time to provide beyond the material. Anyone can give a child the food they need to grow taller, you might even have time to teach them how to read, add and subtract...but am I going to have the time to see to them and their real needs? I can provide the food to help them grow taller, can I provide the food to help them grow up? Until I know that is the case, why would I risk harming the innocent?
The responsibility of parents is the greatest one there is, the decision to be a parent cannot be taken lightly. I love children, so I'm helping the world in the only way I know how so children can live happily and free, even if none of them look like me. 🙂
It may seem to be out of context, but do you know Alan Watts? I found his recordings years ago and listened countless times to his speeches. Now I was gifted some books from him. When I feel dark and lonely the reading gives me a more light attitude towards those emotions. If you like, I post you the titles.
I've seen the name in passing quotes, not very familiar. Sure! A little extra inspiration can't hurt, I'm open to pretty much anything. I might be coming off a little negative in perspective but I don't mean to be, part of my job, a habit, to examine the worst case scenario/perspective too.