Hi Katrin, it's fun how it was a child, anything was possible. I had always been an anything-is-possible person hence I managed to jump hurdles and avoid some too but I guess the exhaustion had caught up with me and didn't want my story to end and revolve around the past. There's just this sense of feeling stuck and I do acknowledge it's all up to me to do something about it. A part of me knows I will be able to bounce out of this and I guess I'll take Leaky's word for it - to regroup and re-adjust plans accordingly.
What about you, have you found your ikigai?
I get what you mean, I also try to live by the fact that everything is theoretically possible and we just have to work hard for it, but we shouldn't give yourself up for it :) I think you can definitely do it, I'm with you secure. I'd say I'm not 100% finding it yet, but am getting there. Even if it is sometimes worth fighting for, it has sometimes helped me to accept that there is no way forward for me (e.g. during my first degree, dentistry). It wasn't my forte, nor did it give me purpose, so I started law, which suits me much better. And what also makes me very happy is traveling and spending time with my loved ones. For example, I'll probably go to Lapland this year for a semester abroad and I'm really looking forward to it:)
I'm grateful to read your story and I'm so happy for you that you've found it early.
That was an intuitive move, changing course when there was no way forward.
Sounds like a great year with lots of new adventures ahead. I can feel your excitement from where I am sitting 😊 Wishing you a blissful day today.