You've gone camping, as I write these words... and my heart hopes you have found a place that's away from the fear.
This was the first post I read after setting my own free yesterday... I read it quickly, and then went away without leaving a comment; wanting to wait till I had the time to leave the thoughts this heartfelt outpouring deserved.
I know this fear.
It makes us feel shattered; fractured, somehow...
I am not of the belief that we are here to be but ordinary. We are not here to merely exist, enslave ourselves and then die.
Fact! But the world of today increasingly enslaves us in its eternal busy-ness that turns us into human DO-ings, rather than human BE-ings. So much basically meaning-less drivel we perceive must be accomplished or we see ourselves as "failures," and with that the edges of fear creep in. "I'm not good enough... I'm not ENOUGH..." the demons of our inner peanut gallery whisper and we start the slippery slide into self-forgetting as we relentlessly try to "become" something we already are... unique and beautiful beings who are already plenty.
And perfect.
Not "perfect" in that stressful perfectionist way, but perfectly exactly who we need to be.
One of the interesting things that happened when I climbed out of my own deep pit many years ago was that I went through an almost 100% turnover in the people I chose to spend time with and be close to. I started relying more on reading people's vibe and energy than anything else in choosing my friends...
Fears are fine, as long as they actually serve a purpose that helps us on our path... not so much when they keep is from living our lives fully. Sadly, we live in an increasingly fear-based world where people are being trained more and more to fear everything. When we are in fear, we can be controlled... and eventually we are controlled more by the fear of the boogieman than the actual boogieman.
Have a beautiful time camping! And know that you're perfect, exactly as you are.
xo
Firstly, thanks for taking the time to come back and give your thoughts.
Yes it does - it can become soul destroying really.
Ain't THAT the damn truth! Very, VERY well said!
Good to know I am not alone on that one. Your instincts don't lie - neither does energy!
So true!!! We literally need to stop walking, turn around and have a "stare down" - and then keep on walking, never looking back, having faith in ourselves and our inner strength.
Thank you @denmarkguy. I appreciate those words greatly.