Now I’m wondering if you’re hitting the spot here on what would be a huge fucking circus if you were nailing it, or if you’re just being the devil who wants others to think that their struggle for enlightenment is pointless and that the only thing to do is to just take what you can from the material plane and forget about holy nonsense.
But then again I think that about almost every word I hear or read.
The truth is I also see the quest for holiness as huge load of bs and self-glorifying theater play, while at the same time I see no escape from the complexity of this wicked game.
I want eternal bliss, but I don’t want to get bored of it. So once I feel peace for a while I swim back to the oceans of trauma and help myself to struggling my way out, so that bliss is once again a prize to be valued.
There’s also OCD which is an actual disease to the rationally oriented and I wonder what life might be if we actually became forever free of it. How good would it be to look at everything with gratitude and not have a single dark thought flash through your mind while you’re at it?
Anyway, thanks for this post, both fun and deep.
Wow.. thanks for your thoughtful response.
I am not against the pursuit of self betterment - this post is rather a poignant missile aimed at the over entitlement of self proclaimed holy individuals who use past lives as some kind of unequal qualifier into their holiness club - including but not limited to some major spiritual leaders.
To me, admitting the self's addiction to conflict is part of healing. By ignoring the demons in the closet we give them a permanent home in our ignorance.
It would be amazing and sometimes it is like this yet the mind finds old patterns unguarded and we repeat an old cycle.
As you said in other words - we get bored of just joy.
These are important admissions for the non-self-declared divine.