Wow.. thanks for your thoughtful response.
I am not against the pursuit of self betterment - this post is rather a poignant missile aimed at the over entitlement of self proclaimed holy individuals who use past lives as some kind of unequal qualifier into their holiness club - including but not limited to some major spiritual leaders.
I want eternal bliss, but I don’t want to get bored of it. So once I feel peace for a while I swim back to the oceans of trauma and help myself to struggling my way out, so that bliss is once again a prize to be valued.
To me, admitting the self's addiction to conflict is part of healing. By ignoring the demons in the closet we give them a permanent home in our ignorance.
How good would it be to look at everything with gratitude and not have a single dark thought flash through your mind while you’re at it?
It would be amazing and sometimes it is like this yet the mind finds old patterns unguarded and we repeat an old cycle.
As you said in other words - we get bored of just joy.
These are important admissions for the non-self-declared divine.