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RE: Leaving It All Behind

in Inner Blocks2 years ago

I read this comment and it is so eloquent and lovely that I wanted to read it again and respond when I can give it my full attention :)

Thank you for taking the time to write this.

I've been juggling work, writing and my son's birthday today so comms have been slow.

But I'm coming back to this in the morning to give it the time and thought it deserves

Beautiful soul. I'll be back!

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Happy birthday to your son! I hope you and he both had a wonderful day <3

Thank you for taking the time to write this.

Well, of course. The way in which you wrote about such a delicate, difficult subject is so smart and touching, I couldn't not. I reckon it's particularly difficult, even for eloquent writers, to write on matters so close to home, and maintain a ray of beauty. Which makes pieces like this all the more rare, and worth appreciating.

<3

Ah... thank you again :)

Honestly. It's a tough share in patches and I've found hindsight to be a better time to share stuff.

When I've processed it and can do it with less triggers and more "truth".

I've also found that going over some of the history triggers me so badly that it bottoms my health out.

I'm not well physically and if my nervous system is set off the adrenalin and cortisol pumping until the flashback passes exhausts me now.

Stress also directly impacts the lungs and I have COPD.

So I have to be careful about what and when I share now for a variety of reasons.

I need health to come first. So slow and steady or even not at all now. 👣👍🏻

I've also found that going over some of the history triggers me so badly that it bottoms my health out.

Obviously, we all work a little different, but personally, I've found there's only so much value that can be reaped from revisiting certain moments in the past. And that some moments revisited work better than others.

As such, I think it's important to recognize the trips down memory lane that help you process and heal, and the ones that are just opening up old scabs (and hopefully manage to leave those alone).

I thought I had responded to this. Apologies!

Now using Engage. I've been on my phone to comment when the electricity goes down and things get missed :/

I'm torn. I used to think this but now I know, for me that is, that I need to "sit" with things until they no longer rattle me. This is just the approach I eventually ended up using. It sucks though. Much rather forget it all and move on. But then it does return unexpectedly anyway at inopportune times...

I do think How we remember is important though. 👍

True. I don't think you can really forget it as long as you haven't made your peace with it. At most, I reckon you could lie to yourself. Or perhaps go through periods when it suddenly means very little to you and you think, oh great. guess I'm over that. But as long as you still have unresolved issues in that memory/time of your life, it's gonna resurface. Sadly.

Is Engage better? Everyone seems to be using something different here. I feel old, I'm still in the mode where there's one original blog platform, and that's it. xD

What you said ☝️

I find Engage easier, personally. But you'd have to try and to know ;)

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