Beautiful reflection. It takes a certain amount of focus to look inwardly and be enlighted. Often times, we are distracted by factors surrounding us. During pandemic where i was mostly at home and didnt interact much with others, i thought i already know what i truly wanted in life. But now that we are past pandemic and barriers are open again, which means we get to inteact with people again, my vision seem to blur again. So im still trying to figure out what it is that i truly want. Maybe i should find my focus again. And oh, that lack of belief can really hinder us from becoming the greatest version of ourselves.
I am not here to advise you on what to do, that's your job, but I like how you understand yourself and see areas for improvement. I think that's the problem for many people, they choose not to see where that can improve and therefore don't improve.
Thanks for sharing some of your personal journey.