Hey there!
Fellow smoker here too, though i'm more of a pipe smoker than normal cigs.
Its good that you're recognising smoking can become a very bad habit for someone who's prone to being stressed.
I started smoking when i was 16, not heavily but quite often. Then it became smoking cigars at 18, then I became a pipe smoker in my late 20s.
What is it about the smoke, when the flame licks the cig and we take our first drag....what is it that keeps bringin us back? It's that space of peace we create for ourselves...
I would like to share two videos with you, one thats mine and one from a fellow pipe smoker who recites his own poem called "Smoke Rings From My Pipe".
If you must continue smoking, i wholesomely recommend pipe smoking. The difference with Pipe Smoking and Cig smoking is, we don't inhale the smoke into our lungs....the tobacco is all natural full of wonderful organic flavours and aromas (no chemicals), the nicotine hit is amazing even when you do not inhale...and smoking nicotine like this from a pure natural leaf is actually very beneficial for the lungs (this is contrary to what we learn from mainstream medical science, which is all filled with lies and deception).
Also a pipe smoke lasts between 15mins - 30mins average. If you smoke slow one bowl will last 1 hr.
Also one carries a peace of nature with them (the pipe) everywhere they smoke!
Yet i hope that you can find a way to quit smoking altogether. It's really a luxury and develops into a crutch that one cannot recover from, if you have not a strong will.
This world is full of darkness and deception. It's becoming an honourless world by the day. But you must continue to be the light. But to do that one must traverse the darkness and confront that darkness within ourselves. I know you've been there and have come out in one piece. Now get back into the darkness and punch those fucking demons in the mouth!
Take care! And may the spirit of magic stay with you always!
Thank you for all your suggestions, I'm working towards quitting.