I actually just came off of a 40 day fast (no solid foods for the entire time...) and the last 10 days of it - were really mostly water, some days - just dry fast.
And it was like my Mt. Everest - of my life. I never thought I could ever do something this intense. It was probably the hardest thing I've ever done - physically, emotionally, socially, spiritually... it was so unbelievably hard.
But on day 35 - I started to have symptoms that made me think its time for me end this early. and I was absolutely devastated. Felt like I couldn't go the distance.. and I am not a quitter. And I had to realize that sometimes - it has nothing to do with quitting. It has to do with coming to the limitations as a human.
But thankfully - I prayed - a lot LOL... and found ways around my symptoms. I thought... if I don't feel better next day - I have to stop. But the next day, I was like a new person (physically) but psychologically.... even MORE difficult LOL.
its hard to explain all the feelings, but last Saturday I woke up a victor. And I was so... so... yeah. :)
but then the hard part came. coming OUT of the fast. hahaha and I was so feelng like - i just wanted to jump back into life - but i had to stop. and wait. and pull back on everything. which is very very foreign to me. i battle feelings of "guilt" when its time to take care of me. lol i feel useless and... like i'm wasting time. so i did a lot of.. relaxing. i baked. i cooked meals for my family. (which i really missed so much when i fasted- i missed just sitting down and sharing a meal with them. you can't believe how much you miss that! lol) and slept! and purposely didn't work on our project (which again made me feel terrible - but it was ok.)
so i'm not sure if this seems... anti-climactic of an answer. hahaha but yes... that's me :)
thanks for asking about me - that was nice of you to just check on me :) thanks
I actually just came off of a 40 day fast (no solid foods for the entire time...) and the last 10 days of it - were really mostly water, some days - just dry fast.
And it was like my Mt. Everest - of my life. I never thought I could ever do something this intense. It was probably the hardest thing I've ever done - physically, emotionally, socially, spiritually... it was so unbelievably hard.
But on day 35 - I started to have symptoms that made me think its time for me end this early. and I was absolutely devastated. Felt like I couldn't go the distance.. and I am not a quitter. And I had to realize that sometimes - it has nothing to do with quitting. It has to do with coming to the limitations as a human.
But thankfully - I prayed - a lot LOL... and found ways around my symptoms. I thought... if I don't feel better next day - I have to stop. But the next day, I was like a new person (physically) but psychologically.... even MORE difficult LOL.
its hard to explain all the feelings, but last Saturday I woke up a victor. And I was so... so... yeah. :)
but then the hard part came. coming OUT of the fast. hahaha and I was so feelng like - i just wanted to jump back into life - but i had to stop. and wait. and pull back on everything. which is very very foreign to me. i battle feelings of "guilt" when its time to take care of me. lol i feel useless and... like i'm wasting time. so i did a lot of.. relaxing. i baked. i cooked meals for my family. (which i really missed so much when i fasted- i missed just sitting down and sharing a meal with them. you can't believe how much you miss that! lol) and slept! and purposely didn't work on our project (which again made me feel terrible - but it was ok.)
so i'm not sure if this seems... anti-climactic of an answer. hahaha but yes... that's me :)
thanks for asking about me - that was nice of you to just check on me :) thanks