Hmmmm, quite an ordeal here my dear.
You are not a loser
And will never be one
They just didn't have an understanding of what you have go present. Am glad that you channeled your energy to make that shawl for your mum( my regards to her).
Am also glad that you channeled that rejection energy to make. Sometimes the world shys away from the ethical problems of. Our eofiee
To be honest, I made the shawl for myself, but my mother saw it and found the colors so lovely, I directly gave it to her :-D (I will greet her from you <3)
And yes, you are right the art market/world is as superficial and capitalist (sometimes i think even more) than every other market. But I really had height hopes for this fair as I thought my topic would fit very well.
I already saw some of the artworks they took and they are less "critical" I think, more nice to look at... I guess I should write more at hive, as this is a better chance to earn than in the analog world.
Thank you so much for your encouraging words (I am always amazed and in awe how much you write and post and tell myself to take you as a good role model <3)