I once read that people don't actually die of cancer, they die when they find out they have the disease because it hits them hard emotionally 💔 I guess it applies to all diseases. When I got sick, I don't know if it was because I was little, but I didn't pay attention to it, I continued living as if I was healthy even though the symptoms wanted to tell me that I wasn't haha I didn't even pay attention to it, I didn't understand the seriousness of my situation, but well, when you grow up you start to understand.
The story of your brother who was not born really had a purpose, both for you and for your mother, everything happens for a reason, life puts things where they should be, even if they are painful and unfair many times 💔
I have helped some people and I have seen them heal in front of me, because of issues they had to have surgery for and that's why I believe in it and believe in it so much, some will say seeing is believing, but it's fantastic. Yes, whatever happened to you is emotional, if it is before the age of 10 it is somatization of a mother's problem, then it is your own.
It's a subject that has fascinated me for 12 years. Thank you!