My anger was at the lack of care my husband got when he went into hospital. I can't blame the nurses, they were SO overworked due to covid just starting. But there's a LOT of anger about the horror of how he died. I hope one day to find a way to deal with it and the trauma of the experience. It was so severe.
The rest of it, I seem to slowly be learning to live with it.
I'm so sorry. That's the worst. Mum was angriest I guess because he was in remission and then the asbestos thing came along. But she has let go of the anger and did so before he died, they both did. It was more shock I think as in seven years Dad never believed he would die. In your situation it was so sudden and during COVID too ... That time still makes me angry but for different reasons, although not least because people like you suffered so much. Are you getting any trauma counselling or have you? It was such a a shock for you. Much love x
There’s not much available in this area. If I had money or could drive, I could get some.
Have you looked into anything online?
I'm not really good at online sorts of things. I don't even know how to do zoom or any of those things. I far prefer human to human interactions.
Yes I totally get that! I hate zoom too. Hopefully things have softened a bit, though I think you'll always carry a bit of anger -Thanks so much for the donation, it's so appreciated and made me cry. It's so kind of you. I can't tell you what it means to me.
Hugs!