This is bu far your least fun post ever ;<)
Reading this almost makes me glad that I don't have children but I see a lot of amazing little kids around me, including those of my twin sister and really wish them an amazing future.
Let's take things day by day and keep focusing on the positive, no matter how bleak the future might seem. If I wouldn't have any hope ( even if hope is just fear in disguise ), I would just stay in bed from now on.
Sending you a hug from a pretty amazing place in Portugal!
Lol...reality can be harsh ;)...by the way I just commented on your post...funny...2 Doofe 1 Gedanke as we say in Germany 😂 .