It is not easy for sure. No need to rush on things very painful to heal right away. I don't what to say or I don't know how to comfort you through words. Still, I'm hoping for you to be healed and recover from such darkness in your life.
We are human beings and living means learning how to handle things. Take care.
I am getting the desired treatment and medications as well but my fear is the addiction to the medicines. These medicines are seductive and one can easily get addicted to them. My issues also required seeing a psychologist as well but for now, I am only getting Psychiatric treatment...