I don't want you to blame yourself for this whole situation, if anyone is to blame it's asshole Putin for starting the invasion against Ukraine.
Whatever happens today in my life I feel I am the one and only responsible because instead of thinking and focusing on self-care and health, I focused on other things which caused this mental issue that I am having. Each and every situation and darkness of my life eat me inside and I am stuck in a box now.
Work culture is so different here and I will write about it when I feel better.
Until then I have to trust the treatment process...
True, we are responsible for ourselves. No one can heal us and nothing can heal us if we don't trust the process. It may take time but be patient, just like waiting for the next day to arrive. It's not easy I know but you need to keep on holding and yeah, just trust the process. Time heals.
I know and I will try my best. Currently, my body and mind are in survival mode so there is no other option except to trust the treatment procedures...