All my love, @gregscloud! I believe this is the bravest and most important post you’ve written to date on Hive.
What we endured today on that call, shook me, as well, but my meds had not been upheaved. I stood a chance. I had much less of a jolt than you, but FFS!!
Some will have it in their heart to understand the severity of such a trigger, whereas others may have the hubris to spin it as some sort of blessing.
Allow me to call “horse shit” on that!
Let there be no misunderstanding, what happens in an online room is just as much the host’s responsibility as if it happens in one’s own home.
Checking to see if your guests are alright is imperative, even if awkward. It is the kind thing to do.
Those of us who stand as survivors of seriously F-upped mental health emergencies are not the problem, nor are we weak. On the contrary, we “cowgirl”or “cowboy up,” for the sake of each other.
We check on one another. We care. We make amends for mistakes made that put our friends in harms way.
You’re a bad-ass mother-f%er, @gregscloud. I’m proud that you took advantage of your @in case of emergency” resources. I’m grateful you took care of yourself and by writing this post you’ve modeled good mental health to others.
This is leadership at its best.
Much love! 😘
Thank you @alessandrawhite I am glad we checked up on eachother. I don't think I would have made it to the other side of the day if not for knowing I was not alone in what I was feeling. I have seen a lot of things in my life that nobody ever should, but today shook me to the core more than I have ever been shook before. I think it has lit a spark in me. I want to do whatever I can to let people know they are never alone. I know how soul destroying and humiliating it can be to feel like we have nobody.
I will do whatever I can to spread kindness again, I will try to dust myself off and be stronger. I think todays vulgar and disgusting shock hit at my core, I suddenly was in a place I thought I would never be again, it was not a happy place, it would have surely done lasting damage had I not had you, @bitterirony and @shadowspub to lean on a little, but I went through the worst of it feeling I had nobody.
I know that is not true, it is the brain saying we have nobody, sometimes we don't, or it's too painful, or people are not available, sometimes we are alone, and being alone for even a few seconds could mean the difference between life and death for somebody.
Make no mistakes about that, I know you care deeply about people as I do, and that this really is something that needs to be brought into the light.
Sometimes people struggle, trauma, life, baggage, any number of things can deeply affect someone, these things may have laid dormant for years, but one day something may trigger something. It doesn't matter what that trigger is. An image, a sound, a scent or cologne, a place, anything can trigger someone who has experienced trauma and has PTSD.
I am telling whoever might be reading this, please do not ever feel alone. I am here as much as I can be, I have social media and email. Know that there are helplines available. There is NO SHAME in needing help, NO SHAME needing to talk to someone.
YOU MATTER and the world needs you, whoever you are, even if it doesn't feel like it right now.
Please never be ashamed of needing help. You know reaching out to someone is one of the bravest things you can ever do, AND, if someone ever reaches out to you, it is one of the most privileged positions you could be in. That person is trusting herself to you, will you be there for someone, even if you think you can, please share the 988 number, or the global link with them, if that is the most that you can manage, you may save a life.
God bless everyone, and I apologize for the rambling comment. This stuff is important, thousands die every year because they feel alone. We all need to realize mental health is NOT a weakness. Today has been one for the books. God Bless you if you are reading this. YOU MATER!