Your one assignment is to not waste away as a human being
You talk of walking through life without light in our eyes. And this is a sad indictment of so many peoples' experiences of living in the world. One of my friends had a son who from a young age simply struggled to find his place in society and in the world as we know it. He always told her (and I paraphrase): "Mom, I don't belong here. I am trying to find my way...and I have tried...but I need to tell you that one day...one day it will be too much. It will be enough. And I will choose to leave it forever. And when that day comes. I don't want you to be sad. Because there is nothing more that you or Dad could have done for me. " He escaped into alcohol and drugs. I met him during one of his sober times and he was a kind gentle sensitive soul. Perhaps too sensitive for our world. Some years later, he called him Mom up and asked for her to meet on on his favourite beach, just to sit and spend time together. The next day she received the call that he had taken his life. I do believe that for some they truly cannot find their way when they look outwards and the only way out, the only crack of light in the doorway they see, is the one inside, the escape through distraction and finally through the finality of death. I do hope and pray that more people can find support amongst their peer groups, can find acceptance in their life choices, and can carve out their own little niches where they can savor at least a little of the light and comfort that they seek so that their souls don't have to live in despair and searing pain with each waking day. I wish you love and hold out my hand sincerely to you in friendship🙏😘