Hope you'll find some fun in my madness, and hopefully I'll find some fun in it as well, when I'm finished. In the meantime, the fact that I'm doing this at all is a testament to how weak and pathetic I am. None of our forefather acted out like this. I'm simply a shame to those around me.
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Me too, man... Sometimes I feel like a burden to my family. Not today, but sometimes...
You are loved
And you deserve to be loved
If I am, maybe you are too. Don't worry, it'll pass.
I should be the one who passes, but as I said elsewhere, that would be too easy. This is not how a man (or frankly, a normal human adult) thinks. What in the hell is wrong with me yet again... I know what is, and it's pathetic.
I'm not as a good of a person as I may seem here on threads. People can be good in one place and terrible at another. It's okay to live, even if you feel you don't deserve to.
There's at least one person who will be sad if you're not there anymore...
How can my family possibly be proud knowing that this is what they raised? All their intensive efforts to create a functional human being have been reduced to this total waste. And the sad thing is that they might even blame themselves to any degree when the truth is that it's all me. While I seek to improve, I hope that my failures as a human being, as a son, and as a man will not reflect on them.
Let those who read this laugh, not pity me, because I deserve no pity. I let myself out of my own control, like a child who does not know any better. Even in my normal state, I do not behave like a man. This is not to be pitied or sympathized or empathized. I do not deserve that. I deserve the pain of consequences until I change my ways. A LOT of pain.
Men did what they were supposed to do without a second thought. It comes naturally to them. Not to a moron like me. What kind of a piece of 💩 am I to not be able to do the same? I have gone so wrong, so bad. What a waste of a life.