I'm right there with you. I have never left and never given up, but I'm also pretty much subconsciously pessimistic about it and wondering if I've made a huge mistake.
It sucks to think I'd be better off investing-wise if I'd kept all of the Steem I had and just sold all of the Hive I was airdropped for BTC or something.
I do think there is a buzz starting to form around it, though, and if there was ever a good time for people to start paying attention, it would be now. I'm pretty excited to see what happens in the next handful of months, and I have a good feeling. I will not be surprised at all if it just sinks lower, though. Hive has been a heartbreaker thus far.
I think I've been "subconsciously pessimistic" (I like this term) since the bubble burst of 2018. Ever since it has been a struggle for me to get back on the horse.