Wow, it's hard to be in your place and I really understand it, but you should encourage yourself to have a child, I have two and although I'm not always with them because of my profession, I can tell you with complete certainty that it's one of the best things that's ever happened to me. in life, the worst effort is the one that is not done, cheer up @galenkp there is always a solution 🙏
As I said, I have resigned myself to not have one.
Also as I said, I am ok with it, cheering up is not required.