My wedding wasn't something I was honestly happy about. My dad wasn't there So it really didn't make sense to me. Seeing my uncles eat everything that would have been for my father made me very emotional. I tried so hard to hold myself during that period. My mum and bro did the running around and then my friends were there too. hubby made all arrangements. Even though I did some too, I wasn't completely into it.
I have gotten over it now by the way. I want to have another wedding some kind of a renewal thing. This time, I will be fully involved
I am sorry about that. Another wedding sounds just right, one where you'll be involved and intentional about what you want and who you want there.
I'm sure it'll be beautiful when you decide to have it, and your dad will always be present in energy and in spirit.
Thank you for your kind words