I'm such a mouse, the type who watches a horror film ( very occasionally) covering my eyes with slit in between my fingers, so I'd never go on one of these tours.
Just out of interest, you're normally very good at writing, do you not want to write about the tours because you don't want to re-live the experience or do you feel it's not appropriate for Hive?
Yeah, I get it, this sort of thing can be confronting.
On the other thing, I don't want to write about it as I can't without saying what happened, personal experiences my partner had, and others, and I don't want to do that (indelibly) on the internet, you know? I don't want everything laid out here, that's not appropriate.