I am really sorry for your loss @galenkp it can be really shit to lose someone without having that chance to give them last words or consciously spending last moments together. I have found with losing people and not having a chance to say goodbye it's helped me to write what I wanted to say down and send it to them in thoughts...
One person that I lost and didn't get to say goodbye to was a good high school friend of mine. She died very suddenly and it had a huge impact on 16 year old me, but also on my later life.
Anyway, in a happier light I would right now really like to talk to my mom face to face, haven't seen her for 1.5 years because of pandemic and border closures, but we should be seeing each other in about 6 weeks! Can't wait for that time to fly by, give her lots of hugs and just have a super long talk about how we're doing and how much we missed each other!
Thanks @plint I appreciate your comments. Losing people is pretty terrible. My mate suicided (PTSD) and it hit home pretty hard.
I hope you get home soon to see your mum, but I also hope you call here today and tell her how you feel. 😊