I am ugly, and because of that, I feel like I am not allowed to live on earth. I should just hide myself in a bag and never plan to go outside, EVER!. This is just my thought; I know that no one is ugly. But to a person like me who has low self esteem, it's hard not to think that way, another thing is, my brain is already polluted with lot's of negative thoughts about my appearance.
I always felt awkward facing people because I felt so ugly. And because of this, I grew up with lots of insecurities. But I love myself okay; it's just that it's hard to erase my insecurity with my face and my body wholly. I love myself in my own way; I can be proud too, but only to myself, to myself as the audience, and not to others. But with lots of crowds? That's a completely different matter.
I know this is bad of me to say this, but I am thankful when facemasks become a required thing in our daily lives. because I can hide my face with it. I can proudly walk outside without thinking that I might make someone puke at the sight of my face. I know, I know it is too "NEGA," but I am already used to self-sabotaging myself every day. That's my way of living, which helps me too.
But I love "me," no matter how much I down myself; it's just "old habits die hard." ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ
So with the question: if I'd rather be good-looking but never have sex again, or ugly and have plenty of sex,
I will choose the first one. I'd rather be good-looking, but I will never have sex again. I'll just masturbate, lol. That's allowed right? So what if I never have sex again? I can play with myself. There are a lot of toys out there that can make a woman happy.
I don't need someone to do the job for me. I can do it myself. And it will be much better if I do it myself, with the help of my fingers, lol. I can do it at the tempo I want. I don't need to beg to make it faster; I can dance to my own music alone and without a partner.
If fingers can't suffice, then I'll buy a dildo, a vibrator, or maybe I'll also get a doll with male organs, lol. I can be beautiful while living the way I want with my sex toys, lol. I can walk around with a wide smile without hiding my face. That would be lovely.
So who cares about sex, right? Lol.
I want to be beautiful, I just don't want to be that not fully bloomed flower anymore, or the plain Jane, I want to be in full bloomed.
I want to feel a male gaze upon me, but with love and not disgust.
I want to wear dresses proudly with my beautiful face and show it to the world.
For once, I want to feel beautiful—not just "FEELING beautiful," but to look literally beautiful. Pretty face, heart-shaped face, no double chin, perfectly shaped eyebrows, long and sexy eyelashes, luscious lips, and shiny long hair, that kind of BEAUTIFUL.
I just want to make myself happy.
I want to be happy.
But don't get me wrong; I am not saying that I am not happy right now. What I mean by this is, "I want to be happy with my good-looking feature," and that's all.
Mix emotion. 🥲 We all have insecurities, we all hate how we look and of course we want to always look better than what we are.
To share my experience, One day i wanted happiness so bad, I realized I didn't have to please anyone. So i said
Fuck what y'all think I'ma be me!.2nd emotion: Shocked, I didn't expect the second part of the post and caught of guard, It's almost reading a
Pornikula(Soft Porn). Hahahaha but don't get me wrong, it made me laugh! 🤣🤣🤣But anyway, Don't worry about how people think, wear what you want to wear, be who you want to be, do things for yourself not for others and celebrate life the happiest way you can be! Be #alive and #thrive! ✨
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Chrueee! Minsan nga ako ayaw ki na mag salamin ee aguyy. Saka dapat talaga sarili natin ang piniplease natin hindi ang iba, kaso minsan di talaga maiwasan ee aguyy.
Hahahahaha, gomen ✌️🥴🥴. Pero maigi at napatawa ko kayo ng bonggabels ahahahaha.
I'll try to think positively so that I can do this na talaga.
Chruuuee! minsan talaga hindi maiwasan.. Basta tandaan mo kahit anong ganda nila color brown pa din ang pupu nila hahaha 🤣
Kidding aside, Imperfection is always perfect. Just never do self-harm.. 🥹 and Always Feel Good. Be Good and Do Good. We are all in the same boat, sailing the same ship called Life.
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You are not ugly Ruffa, just be yourself and live with confidence. Just stay positive that there's always good of you🎉
Awww thank you, thank you 😁
I was laughing quite a bit but not about how you feel ugly. I know I'm ugly but I wear it proudly. I will trade faces with you any day. Ugly is not a real thing in my opinion.
Take off the mask and hang loose!
Oh My G! I live this line of yours "I know I'm ugly but I wear it proudly!" I think I should do the same ❤️
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA
What a plot twist 😂
I thought this would be an emotional post about how you look but LOL I was so surprised I didn't see that coming.
Well, you have a point though. You don't need someone else to make you "happy". You can control your own rhythm.
But always know that you're pretty @ruffatotmeee! The world just has standards of what being beautiful is, but who cares, you're beautiful just the way you are. Beauty fades but personality and attitude? That's what's important. 😉
Hahahaha, dami ko napatawa here, ang daming nagulat, ahahahaha.
Yes naman, i love myself naman lahit madalas ko e down si self. Basta sariling sikap nalang ako sa lahat ng bagay, ahaha.
Yayy, I'll try to change na din may attitude kasi ma attitude talaga ko ee. Kahit yun nalang ang natitirang😂 pretty sakin okie na ko,bahaha charrr.. pero thanks sa mga kind words nyo ❤️❤️🥰
I had a good time reading your musing. I starts with melodrama of having to feel your're not beuatiful enough, but with this: "I'd rather be good-looking, but I will never have sex again. I'll just masturbate.", its a full flip. I love how you express yourself. It was unfiltered and authentic.
By the way, you're not ugly. If you have flaws, remember that what makes you unique. it's good to know that despite this musing, you're happy. That's good to hear.
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Hahahahaha, I can feel the shame now of what I Wrote here huhu. But well, just being honest haha.
Thank You 🥰. I am always happy it's just then, insecurities sprouts out of nowhere ready to devour me. Good thing I already know how to divert my attention not to mind it.
Don't be ashamed of expressing yourself. And, it's really a good piece. Well, the question is a bit delima. Trading beauty and sex? That's quite difficult. Hahaha
That's nice finding a means to focus or divert your attention to something else. Well, Keep sharing!
Yan rin te pumasok sa kokote ko after ko nabasa yung question kaso playsafe ako at baka mabanned HAHAHHAHAHHAH😭😭😭😭
Hahahahahaha, pero if possible lang naman na ganito pagpipilian, beauty talaga pipiliin ko haha
You crack me up . If that's allowed 🤣😂 🤣 I was tired about ready to take a nap in a bit. Now I got a second wind now and need to take advantage of it.
Not ugly either Ms Beautiful ;)
HAHAHAHAHA, i hope you had a nice nap yesterday, lol.
HAHAAHAH LAKAS MO TALAGA RUFFATOT!
Tama ka ruffa!! Tama! 😂 mas masarap pa mag sarili kesa sa lalaking madaling malabasan and leaves you hanging after.. Tapos makakapili kapa sa size na gusto mo 😏
Also ruffatot.. I don't find you ugly.. In fact i find you pretty..
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.. Trust me you are pretty inside and out 😘
Awwww, thank you. Sana ganyan ako ka positive na tingnan si self. Minsan kasi di maiwasan na lalong mas ma insecure. Pero mas malala ako lang din gumagawa ng ika iinsecure ko, lol
I feel you ruffatot, i have a lot of insecurities sa self ko until now.. Pero slowly tinutulongan ko ma love self ko..
Goods yan, kahit utay utay no basta may progress, ako kasi paramg wala hahanep
HAHAHAHA, bat parang base sa experience to 🥴🥴 ahahahaha. Pero legit talaga! Naku.
Di ako na inform na SPG pala ito 😆😆😆...
HAHAHAHA gomen 😆 pero kaya ganyan taytul ko kasi hint na yan ahahaha
There are really those days when we wish we could be "better". Still, it's better to be surrounded by awesome people who accepts us for who we are. 😊
Thats even better, we age accepted snd loved 🥰
I was speechless for a while after reading!
Ruffa, you are not ugly and we could always be beautiful in our own way.
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HAHAHAHAHA, natatawa ako habang sinusulat kp yan haha pero real yan HAHAHA. If ever, lol.
Ewan ko ba, di ko mapilit si self na pretty nga ako jajaha
You're not a beauty queen, but you're not ugly either
Hehehe, thank you 🥰
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