You get it! I must admit I will probably always be intrigued be the realm of esoteric. But, I am coming to understand that even if I read or watch videos about certain subjects doesn't mean I need to practice them. I live in the country and am very busy with farm chores after all. So making bouquets, collecting rocks, and beautifying my surroundings is the most practical magick and that is where my purpose lies, at least for now.
I really appreciate your heart-felt comment!!
I love it! I feel the same in my urban homestead. Caring for the plants and animals brings joy and peace into my life. I used to do crystals and grids with herbs and flowers. Now I thank them and make tinctures for medicinal purposes only. I can't pick them for a vase anymore and leave them to the garden spirits. I captured some fairies in photos years ago and even had one say hello to me. What a delight that was. Now, I love the insects and birds and take care of the land as best I can.