damn lol, you were deeper than I was
What happened for me is that the experiences became so unimaginably real that I would get depressed to be in "normal life"
tell me about it, thankfully I stopped due to other circumstances of breaking my sleep during the day habit and it didn't happen as much during regular nighttime sleep.
I will always maintain that lucid vs. nonlucid is not a black-or-white thing; there are depths and degrees of lucidity.
Yeah, especially when you haven't had the pleasure for some time it got me really confused. The whole thing with not seeing my phone felt surreal, cause I could feel it and see everything else (so it wasn't my eyesight) so I really thought I was losing it since I was so sure I was awake.