Your first paragraph could not have resonated with me more, my old friend.
I commend you and your efforts on this journey. It reminds me of a short, sweet song I discovered recently called 'Life's Incredible Again'. It's amazing to think how long we actually perpetuate this state of being on life support, while functioning and maintaining a believable facade. I seem to still be somewhere in the middle of my struggle, with a similar up/down and lack of energy/interest. And I've gone a great long while without posting on Hive. Still nothing all year, but I wanted to change that today.
Thank you so much for taking the time to make this comment, I really appreciate it and I'm happy to hear from you!
Looking back, life sure was easier when I didn't even realize in how bad of a situation I've put myself. But the struggle is worth it and eventually things do get better.
All the best and a lot of strength to you for your own journey!