Thank you. I am a very sceptical person and it has taken me a long time to share my ideas because much of the people in my life have worked tirelessly to convince me I am mentally ill. For a long time I almost believed it, and was also haunted by this parable attributed to Jesus; "Hypocrite, take the plank of wood from your own eye before attempting to remove the spec of dust from your neighbours."
I was quite afraid of teaching people the wrong thing because of my understanding of the power of words and the beliefs they incite, and so I mostly remained silent for the past few years, refining my understandings. But as the entire world begins to burn around me, I no longer feel it could possibly be the right thing to remain silent. And I believe it possible now, that Lucifer has been subtly manipulating my own loved ones to drive me into isolation, self-doubt and ultimately suicide.
I am quite sure that is a symptom of schizophrenia, to believe that everyone is out to get you. But I am doubting my ideas less everyday, and the world seems to be nudging me towards this end using coincidences to affirm the ideas I am thinking about at the time.
So, I cannot say wholeheartedly that what I say is the truth. I believe if I were righteous, I would know for sure. But unfortunately, I am not. Yet, at least. But this is I believe, if not the truth, a belief system that could inspire one to conquer their demons and become an asset to a world in desperate need of some.
I would ask you to tell me all the things you are struggling to believe or to get behind, because I have a billion more words and ideas that I could share to hopefully back up anything that I have not done a good enough job of explaining. I just did not want the post to be an overwhelming length, or it may not have been read. I know that attention spans are becoming shorter by the day.
In regards to your question about lust, I think there is a difference between having sex for the purpose of procreation, and having sex for pleasure. Having sex for pleasure is time spent serving yourself or your partner, that could have been spent serving the world which is in dire need of intervention.
I would also go a step further, though I am undecided on this issue in spite of all the time I have spent pondering it, whether there is any good reason to procreate at all. Certainly, the world as it stands, is not safe for children, and perhaps our time would be better spent making it so rather than creating new versions of ourselves so that we can try and fix our mistakes through them or have someone who will love us, or who we can boss around. Better it would be, surely, for us to make our mistakes count and become far better versions of ourselves, get the world in good order, and then perhaps we can make babies.
If death is inevitable then of course procreation is necessary, but if the scriptures are at all accurate when they say death is only a consequence of sin (I am not saying it is, for I do not know), can you think of any good reason to procreate in a world where everyone lives forever anyway? I guess in such world, life would be unarguably a gift. But giving life to a child in a world such as this, where evil forces dominate the world effectively unchallenged, seems more like a curse.