The fact that you have been DVed for a year ... not your fault, @themarkymark. I say again: I acknowledge those big $42 DVs every time you post.
The fact that you are DVing good content creators that have nothing to do with your conflict with Xeldal -- entirely your responsibility, sir.
If you have been abused, and you STOP THE CYCLE, then you do not become an abuser. That takes strength, courage, fortitude, endurance -- all the things that make for greatness. It is also a big sacrifice. I do get that.
If you are abused and you pass the abuse down, you have become just another abuser.
Entirely your choice, sir, and your responsibility.