Growing up is not a good thing,I mean not good at all.I miss that little girl inside me who used to laugh so often,who was talkative,expressed exuberance in simplest simple things. Who used to trust everybody. Every single person.
I was a girl Who used to whisper everytime listening to a song & may be used to smile a bit as well. Sehri was happy,actual happygirl . She enjoyed every moment that life offered her.
But now,the scenario is different.Now the girl knows how to be just silent in situations,how to just say"okay"even if it's not! She know how to make a fake smile and let things go.
She know the disadvantages, the disadvantage of coming from a highly educated family is that there is a lot of lack of high-mindedness in the family.
Now she can relate with the Children of highly educated families suffer more depression.If the rest of the family members have a higher degree, they don't even consider others as human if they don't have an equivalent degree.Holding a high degree becomes a norm for which there is no room left for self-indulgence.
Here One's higher education becomes a burden to others, at the end of the day one adds to the number of suicides.
But she knows that education is worthless if it does not make the mind better. Everyone is different, everyone has different wishes. She is mature now. Obviously she's grown up,situation makes her to be so. Still I miss that sehri ,that so happy me.
While this growing up I understand that my one taunt(so called fun) can ruin someone's confident . Can snatch someone's mental peace. I have to be careful with my word , about my word .
I only understand that I can't create others unhappy just because I'm unhappy. That's all from me for today. Thanks for reading.
Growing up is the time of measuring the life from every critical angles and as the years begin to roll on we keep getting better at finding what is laid hidden as the secret meaning.
Yeah,I deeply feel the restlessness, the agony and sorrow to be in such situation you are facing, specially emerging from a family of high institutional status and that clumsy state of attitude often exchanged.But, let me tell you despite living alone and solitude, apart from the depth of cordial touches from dear ones and family members most of the time, one day things would be pretty clear and possibly a solution would be there for you.
The puzzle that seems to you as a complex one will someday be as easy that you could solve it in a blink of eyelids. Just then cast a judgment of my words.
Have a blessed Life. Aameen.
I hope that one day come soon in my life .
BTW thanks for your concern & specious comment.
Allah has the best plan ..
When I was young I thought growing up was all the fun.The elder people are so independent! They can do whatever they want.
But as I grew older I saw that true freedom was disappearing.All around is responsibility and responsibility.
Growing up is a trap ! This trap is surrounded by so much responsibility!
I used to be obsessed about growing up. Seeing the many shites life threw at me as a child, I used to think growing up will make this all go away as I'll be able to take the charge for my life.
But now when I'm 24, doing my undergrad, with no fucking clue about what I'll do in the coming days after I graduate; I feel like I overestimated the growing up part of my life, my existence, as its not as jolly and fun as I'd hooe for it to be.
I won't lie, growing up and being an adult has helped me to some extent from various aspects, but the shitfest these perks brought along get too much to bear at times.
But for some weird reason, I still feel like growing up a bit more would solve these shits for me. I know that ain't true, I know life won't necessarily get better, but I kinda believe with time I'll be even better at coping up with whatever life throws at me. Fingers crossed.
Actually growing up is a myth!
Every stage of life have some different liabilities. But as a child you can be care free . But adulthood is a very important time , you can't be careless! Liability also grew up with your age.
If someone enjoy the procedure of growing up it can be a happy journey otherwise it get surrounded by the sorrow & depression!
Hear hear.