To be honest, I have never judged those people who committed suicide. Being suicidal myself, I know what they felt, gone through, the fight they had to fight during those last moments of their lives before finally putting a full stop on it.
when she died I never judged her decision, never. Because I knew what she felt, what she had to go through before jumping off of that rooftop. What I felt was pure guilt and regards for not being there for her. Something I have to live with for the remining of my life.
কেউ একজন চলে গেলে দুনিয়া থেমে থাকে না, সবকিছু তার আপন গতিতে চলতে থাকে। কেউ যদি জাস্ট একবার এই জিনিষটা উপলব্ধি করতে পারতো তাইলে হয়তো দুনিয়ার প্রতি ক্ষোভ নিয়ে ভুল সিদ্ধান্ত একটু কম নেওয়ার চেষ্টা করতো।
You would think we, the suicidal people really cared for this, but sadly the truth is, we don't. At least for me, that's what I want. I don't want the world to stop moving because I am not here, I just don't wanna be here. It has nothing to do with the world. Don't get me wrong, suicidal people are scared of death just like everyone else. We are just simply tired of living. :')
I am not judging them, even I can't feel that as I have never thought of something like that.
All I think is that this is not the proper way to say goodbye. Where the world is not giving any shit on our existence then why should we leave without making a hole in it. I cant feel the thoughts of a suicidal person as I desperately want to live a long life, wroth of living ✌
That's good to hear. :') Always hold onto that. :')