I guess when you study something that didn't come from the heart then it can bring unhappiness... This happened to many composers and musicians in the past, their parents didn't want them to study music, but in the end, they realized what their vocation was 😇
I am glad that in the end, you found your passion and dedicated your time to it 😇
I am also happy about it, parents sometimes want to do their best, but the heart is the heart.