I’ve always loved music.
I’ve always loved stories.
I’ve always been relatively sad.
I’ve always loved music that told sad stories.
…but is this healthy?
📸: Lexi Miles, used with permission.
I’m a proprietor of sad songs, and always have been. My website is literally sadbastardmusic.com, and I’ve really owned that whole concept within my own music and the music that I listened to for the bulk of my life: SADDDDDD
Over the past few years, I found myself not listening to much of the music I’d consider to be my music just because it hurt too much. I have tons of mix CDs from my college days that I’ve only recently been able to revisit.
Music hurts.
And is the catharsis good or is it harmful? Obviously this is a rhetorical question that each person must answer individually, but while I’ve been digging into some great music (links below), it’s just all so sad. All the time.
Shouldn’t we choose to get out of those places if we have the choice? Is music my depressed friend constantly pulling me back down into the abyss? Is music my toxic abusive lover?
…because right now, it feels like the answer to all of this is yes, but what if I’m in a codependent relationship with my music? Not only the tunes I write but the ones I put in my ears?
If you’re interested in hearing what I’m listening to today, I’m curating a playlist on Spotify that you can feel free to follow and tell me what you think about it all. I’m always interested in the opinions of the Hive Mind, because I feel like I’m losing mine today.
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ALL proceeds from my Hive account go toward furthering my career as a real-life, full-time artist and creator. It's a dream that you help make possible. This includes needed equipment, recording costs, gas to and from out of state gigs, and things like food when I'm on the road. To be a full-time creator has been my goal for as long as I can remember, and your upvotes absolutely help me to sustain that. All of my love and thanks to you.💚
All photos, unless otherwise credited, are taken or chopped/screwed/edited/altered by me and are hosted either here or at Imgur. Stock photos are used with permission from Pexels, and banners are made using Canva for iOS.
Sounds like a case of the burnouts to me man. Try and try as you might you can’t make people show up to shows and yeah I hear the it’s not you its me but just know we love you and please keep on keepin on yo. Keep doing the things you love jesso and screw ‘em all if they don’t like it..
It’s weird, because it’s like I feel like I’m actually coming out of the burnouts with some new perspective, but also with that new perspective comes a ton of questions and things I’m probably just obsessing over because, well….anxiety disorder. Lolol but fr.
Hello! Fellow music lover (and part-time writer/performer) here and somebody who tends to bottle up emotions if I don't work at it, with people I trust, or through music...
If you listened to happy music all the time, to try and mask what you are really feeling, I tend to think that would then be short-circuiting the process? You get people who try to be positive immediately, and they bottle up their negative feelings, sometimes for years, only for those negative feelings to crop up again when they've forgotten why... It's better to work through the negative emotions, and process them, before then using positivity to look for the good in the situation and what opportunities you may have missed when you were too sad to see them.
I hope this helps... your preference in music may be telling you where you are right now. If you've been sad for months or years, hopefully you can find the support you need and find the root causes of it, and slowly fight your way back up... at first you might only have the energy for a little bit at a time, but it starts to pay off in interest!
thank you for the thoughtful comment here; it’s leaving me with a few things to think about and consider.@jasperdick, first of all,
I think one of the problems with me is that rather than processing anything, I just allow myself to sit in the sad, which isn’t dealing with anything in a practical sense. And I also think I push my own feelings down while simultaneously projecting them onto every song I hear. Perhaps being more conscious of this will help me to actually process and to finally use music in a healing and therapeutic sense rather than just cathartic.
Artist brain is a trip sometimes, isn’t it?
Who cares if they don't like it, I do, and I know I speak for most of the people here on hive. You just keep doing what you do and keep shining, thanks for sharing.
@nelson-george thank you for this comment and for your positive encouragement offered to me here. Thank you, sincerely. I’ve always experienced such validation from this community over the years, and it brings me comfort knowing that’s still here today.
You're welcome, I only ask that you encourage people out there too.
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