thank you for the thoughtful comment here; it’s leaving me with a few things to think about and consider.@jasperdick, first of all,
I think one of the problems with me is that rather than processing anything, I just allow myself to sit in the sad, which isn’t dealing with anything in a practical sense. And I also think I push my own feelings down while simultaneously projecting them onto every song I hear. Perhaps being more conscious of this will help me to actually process and to finally use music in a healing and therapeutic sense rather than just cathartic.
Artist brain is a trip sometimes, isn’t it?