yeah, dear, you're right, and nobody can understand Moms except Moms;))
I was the same - I felt I knew NOTHING:) and I was so lost! I was alone and had almost mobody to help me. No friends, no good advisers, only Mom but she was lost the same because she was a young Mom many many years ago and she forgot all these worries and ways out of them. And we had different views on health and food issues as well... we had many disputes and quarrels because of it, and thus I was absolutely alone. But maybe it made me stronger;) Am I know more ready for the second baby? Well, amn't sure;)) but I have to be not so lost I hope;))
I'm Ok, thanks! Too many cares now. I have a good profitable project in my freelance work. I am happy because I like my job as a copywriter, but at the same time I have a great lack of time. All days fly so fast and I have no time to do everything I want and have to do. I see now that I have either time for unschooling of my boy or for my own work. Now I try to combine it and feel very tired every day... housework+unschooling+my own work+help to my parents is too much for me... Try to find more time in this short 24hours day;)
But what am I telling to you?:) you've 2 kids! and house work as well, so you know what lack of time means I think;)
do you practice breastfeeding now again?:) magical moments....;)