PRETTY NICE MICRO VLOG: IM CALLING IT QUITS. ITS JUST TOO MUCH ALREADY. I GIVE UP. TGIS PAIN IS SO RIDICULOUS. MY MEDICAL RECORDS ARE SO RIDICULOUS. NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO LIVE LIKE THIS. NO ONE.
I'm so tired you guys and while I'm usually up beat and positive, I'm telling everyone now, its catching up to me. People are so fake today, from family and friends to the doctors and honestly, I just don't care to be social anymore. My life isn't easy but when everything is just too much you have to say to yourself, "is what I am doing whats right for me?" If I move, its all over for the day, the moment I move my mouth, its all over for the day; it doesn't whp, what, where when or why. Only the te I wake up from being flat all night, for me to unravel it within the first hour of my day. Rest, you say? I have. I've laid flat in a hospital for 2 weeks. Not even two weeks of rest will ever fix all the shit these doctors have left me with. I'm just done. Im sorry. When life starts only giving you an hour per 4 hours laying down... you start to realize not only the crazy situations but crazy people are just not worth it. Not worth my only good hour a day. It doesn't matter if I'm mad, happy. It doesn't pock an emotion. My body start tearing apart every day and I just can't take it anymore. If you don't know whats wrong its because you've never watched or read my post. Im not joking here. I'm dealing with serious shit. Shit that could be fixed. Look up past post videos to catch up. I'll be leaving Instagram up so that everything I've been though can be archived. But I won't be signed in or active..sorry. I just Cannot handle Living a fake life because what I go through in between the shots no one could ever imagine and yet everybody thinks they know my life judged on those shots.
In the video I am eating incredibles THC and CBD gummy I have to take to now. But my pain has increased. They're great, there bit sour if you put the sugar on it, and make sure you don't put the sugar on all of them and then close them up. The sugar liquefies them somewhat. So you have to do it on each one as you eat them.
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you guys ill still curate and pop in comments here and there. You guys arent the problem. My neck and spine and hip are. Its just way too much. I refuse to life on pills
@priyanar I sent you a DM but ill put it here too. You guys im just tired. Its not any of you. I promise. Its the people closest to me, the doctors etc. I just cant anymore. Ive tried. Ive sign out of Instagram and I'm not opening until this is fixed. If not. Ill be dead but at the rate tye world is going....
I LOVE ALL you guy's. Im just tired. For a more personal way of contacting me, if for any reason life compelles you to, DM me in discored. Ill get to them as i can. Im sorry again.
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Hi I'm sorry to hear this.. this is not a commercial it's my own experience because I wanted just to stop working last year I couldn't do it due to musclepain whole day long. After watching the video I ordered a half sheet to try out at www.aarding.org the American site is https://www.earthing.com/collections/all-products/
My life turned a bit more bearable if I stop working i lose my home so I need to stay working. It doesn't solve the problem but for my muscle problem and pain at night and morning it was a day night difference. Of course it falls back sometimes if I do too much but it really is helping me. I don't say it will help you. It isn't psychological because one day I thought it doesn't work anymore I was back at the beginning as I saw later the cable was loose in my bathroom. After fastening the earthcable it was working again.
Stay strong. Believe in yourself that's the only thing you have. Try to do some positive things like watch a funny show in tv. I hope you feel better soon.
It is true that no one can ever know what you are going through. Pain is a silent beast that eats at us without remorse. There is no comfort in that someone hurts worse or less... there is only you and your journey with that beast. Move if you can, breath because you have no choice. All my heart and hope for you to find resilience. ✊
Sweetheart. I have absolutely no clue as to what you are going through. I have been pretty healthy and yes, even being a fat middle-aged man, in fairly good health. My skin cancer does not hurt, but I know it is there.
You must do what is right for you. I get it. Yet? You have blessed many people love. A great many folks care about you (I state the obvious). If I could take your pain upon myself, I would.
We all have our crosses to bear. Life is not easy. Not a rose garden. I watch and listen to my sister everyday because I am her sounding board. She will not share her physical and emotional pain with many in the family, but me.
I have no words to comfort you. Even though I am a control freak and can not fix what is going on with you. Know this, young lady, you are loved. Never forget that and hold on to that.
It pain. Pain so bad from years of lies these doctors has pushed aside. After winning SSDI case I got access for a lot of my Real medical records and it's funny how they have me listed for a spinal injury since 2017 and in 2019 recently my MRI shows Now that I have a different kind of incomplete spinal injury and it keeps me numb. They have been literally taking the advantage of me being numb on top of the fact of them giving me lyrica and just watching me get worse case scenario while they told me I had fibromyalgia. And the pain is so badd and now I can't go to the hospital. Not right now. I'm gonna do one last video screen to be on my medical records, what I've been through, and how I can diagnose it and yet these doctors place so fucken stupid. I just only have so many good hours A-day and I gotta give those to my kids
Girl, please hang in there, you’re in a terrible moment right now, but that’s just what it is. A moment in time, THIS TOO SHALL PASS! I have been there, believe me! And things always eventually get better! Let me know you are still there! Please
no im serious.
How are you now?
There is always hope after despair
I am so sorry. Your presence is such a blessing. I empathize with your pain and am sorry nothing can take it away...
Oh there is, surgery. Our country is fake as hell. And only getting worse
I know that's right....the greed runs deep.
Can you take a piece of that back-pay and get a few things fixed? I don't what their deal is. Kinda really pisses me off a little more than little bit they not takin care of you like they should.
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oh ok. @snook. Gods telling to change my mind
well if God said it :D