RE: Just Some Random Thoughts

I know what you feel. I experienced this in the past when I was in high school.

I was confused about what those feelings were—feeling the numbness inside my chest, the will to live barely gone, losing interest in my hobbies, neglecting personal hygiene, and the loss of sense of purpose in life with lots of negative thoughts.

My motivation to live is that my family will be sad when I'm gone, and I remembered what my aunt told me when I was little: when we do 'it' purposely, we go to hell. That fear became my motivation and determination to live.

That fear struck me, so I decided to find those solutions to my answer.

I did find it, to be honest.

I find it through God.

When I went to church after God arranged for me where to go through my best friend, He's my only solution.

I feel His great love, and through having His fellowship, He comforted me a lot of times.

There is a Bible verse about heartbrokenness. Heartbrokeness doesn't mean breaking up your lover, but the sadness within. He is near the broken heart and crushed in spirit.

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." (Psalm 34:18)

What you see in this world is temporary, especially the distraction. If you have the heart to seek Him sincerely, you will find your answer. I guaranteed of that.

But first, maybe go to church like I did before? Maybe you will find your answer and be comforted. Just give it a try. You will never know.