It's not about if I forgive you or not. It's not like I am mad at you, I'm not your mother.
I just wish you could see what you're doing is the fastest road to nowhere. You've been doing this for four years, complaining, throwing tantrums because, as you said, no one cares.
You can't force people to vote and engage on your posts. That has to be earned. Try to write about things with your own word, do one post and one actifit, focus on quality and not on quantity.
You may be surprised to find support and people who engage with you.
You can't walk on the same path and expect different outcome. If 4 years of doing the same thing hasn't brought you what you wanted, it's time to reconsider what you're doing.
Just my two cents.