First I will address what I meant by 'trying to love everyone unconditionally'. This means that I already know and am presenting to the world, that I am in no way a master yet, only a student. I cannot say unequivocally that I love everyone, because I don't- yet.
The people I do not yet know how to love anyway are what I consider the scum of the Earth: anyone who molests,rapes, abuses children- in any form.
People who abuse, mutilate, and torture animals.
Hateful people who remain intolerant of others because of their own ignorance & misunderstanding and hurt, torture, assault, abuse, rape and/or murder ANYONE.
THESE people are the ones I called leeches, Miss Penny, not what you assumed I meant, which seems I miswrote because I would never consider an LGBT person a leech or doormat, simply because of your life choices.
I try my hardest to love people, but I have not yet mastered loving hateful people.
THIS is where I stand. This is a card I found years ago, and carry it with me everywhere I go, as a reminder: 
This is the place I start from. If someone treats me badly, I go from there. I TRY never to start from a place of hatred, but I am human and I make mistakes. That is what I meant by using the word 'try'.
This is also why I used the term 'walking on eggshells.' We are having a discussion but I still feel a little attacked, as here I am, attempting to better explain what I so grossly understated in my original post, hence walking on eggshells.
I also do not think you are a mistake. Your body was not a mistake. You obviously think biology or God made the mistake in the form you were given, or you wouldn't be trans, is that not correct? Your decision to transition from male to female had nothing to do with me, you had no idea I existed before a few days ago, so How can I even say you were a mistake?
I can only ASSUME that people think a mistake was made somewhere along the line and they feel the need to transition.
This is where language failed me, if no one else.
You were assuming that I feel negatively towards LGTB people because I want to be able to question choices? Having questions, not understanding how your brain got to where it did in its' thinking, does not equal hate.
This is where things get fuzzy for me, but I am trying to explain myself.
I'm completely fine with the LGTB community. I start to question, where the Q comes in. This is me, in my ignorance.
I completely understand gay/lesbians.
Guys who love dick? I get it. 👍
Girls who love vagina? I've never been curious, but I can totally see it. We women are CRAZY, so power to you trying to handle that shit! 👍
Bi-sexual. You can't choose, everyone is beautiful.
I get that too. 👍
Transsexual. You feel more empowered by the opposite of the gender/sex you had. I don't quite understand the brain, but I accept you. I don't hate just because I don't completely understand.
The people who want to be considered non-binary is where I get completely confused. I'm in the process of trying to understand better, but it hurts my brain. That's honestly true.
No matter how much I DON'T understand, it does not mean I hate you. That's what this post meant all along.
I would like to understand more and I allow these discussions but I also feel that we get attacked trying to gain understanding for what we don't know.
I may never fully be able to grasp why someone feels more like a man then being a woman and vice versa. It does not mean I hate you for having come to and making a very difficult life choice.
I can see it is not an easy decision.First off, thank you @steampunk-penny for even reading, then actually responding to me. It took me several hours to write and CLEARLY I still didn't take enough time, but then all my posts would become novels if I had to precipe myself each time.
I'm sorry, but I do think you're wrong about Rose McGowan. The second article I posted was written by a trans woman and I believe her view honestly seems more unbiased than the first article. And in regards to the event that took place? Shame on Andi!!! She attacked a woman who was brave enough to talk openly about rape and being victimized when honestly, that was not the time nor place to do so. I agree with that 100%.
I was not there. No matter what we read, or see, tv and articles can still leave out, edit, misconstrue what really took place. But someone attacking Rose for something she said months ago, again probably taken out of context, on a tv show, this situation had no place at her book signing.
I hope this makes you understand better that I do not come from a position of hatred.
I feel that we've had some A-MAZING pioneers for the world to allow acceptance.
Without diving into history lessons, I believe that Joan of Arc, Amelia Earhart, Annie Oakley, David Bowie, Freddy Mercury just to name a few were larger than life innovators who said, 'you don't like me? I don't give a fuck!' to how people expected them to behave, dress, act.
My brain may never fully understand why someone chooses or comes to terms with being trans. I have never questioned having a vagina this time around. I'm not really into makeup, clothes, purses, shoes. I'm not a girly-girl. But I like being a woman and have never questioned if I was supposed to be male. Just because my brain can't wrap around that, doesn't automatically mean I put you down if you had/have those thoughts. That's what I meant, when I said you need to accept us too.
We're not all haters, just because we don't necessarily understand how you came to be you.
✌️💕 I hope you have a wonderful day too.
From the video I saw, Ms. Dier's accusations were out of line. Not everyone can or should fight every battle, and most people won't even fight their own battles. I don't feel obligated to defend someone's actions because they're LGBT anymore than I do because they're not. There's a time and place, and just because Ms. McGowan is talking about one thing that has affected her very personally doesn't mean she doesn't care about the other thing. I think she tried to handle it gracefully at first, and Ms. Dier wasn't having it. We can't expect everyone with "privilege" to take bullets for us, and accuse them of bigotry when they dare to prioritize their own problems. Ms. Dier jumped Ms. McGowan and expected her to drop whatever she was doing and pay attention to hershould Ms. McGowan care? Can you really make her care? Even assuming she doesn't, is that really the best way to gain her support?, using violence against trans women as a cover. That is the very attitude Ms. McGowan and the #metoo hashtag are trying to point out. If I was Ms. McGowan, I would have lit that chick up for trying to make my book signing all about her. Why
Sure to all of that, except what I said was Rose is transphobic, I didn't really look to far into this incident because it doesn't matter past that to me. I don't have an opinion on the right and wrong of it. They both felt they where right, its murkey as to the truth of it, watching the tape it felt wrong but meh, we all trying to survive. The point I was making, and still am making is that Rose is transphobic, clearly and without question. Also the trans haters came out immediately to below this women's life apart, because she's trans. I give zero fucks really about the situation they are both riding coat tails to seek fame they didn't earn however...only one of them is transphobic, and that's Rose, just saying🤗🤗🤗💜🦄
Thank you so much for your reply, I'm at work and will respond properly when I can, just wanted to let you know I read your post and I'm thinking not ignoring you🦄💜🦄hope your well!!🙋