Great introductory post!
It's very refreshing to see someone be so open as you, even about your mental illness. I had to look up Psychotic Depression because I didn't know how that differed from regular depression. Smart of you for ditching the competition aspect of sports, I wrestled for 13 years (Age 5-18) so I know all about competition. I still like wrestling to this day and have all the gear and a 10X10 ft mat in my house :)
I am thankful that you got introduced to Steemit and stuck around. Steemit is seriously the best. I love it here too! I bookmarked all your posts that I haven't read (266 to be exact). Steempeak surprisingly handles that many bookmarks like a champ so I am ready to rock and roll now haha. Buckle up!
Oh one more thing. I thought of you with this song concerning your depression. It's called Rescue Me from one of my favorite bands 30 Seconds to Mars. The front man Jared Leto describes the song as:
a song about pain, empowerment, faith and freedom. It's also a song about the brutal war so many of us wage against fear, depression and anxiety in the hope that we might, one day, live a life filled with happiness and dreams.
I hope you like it :)
I can't put in words how blessed and lucky I felt when I saw that you commented on this post. My very first one on this platform. Are you an absolute sweetheart or an absolute sweetheart?💜😘
As for the psychotic depression, first you're way too cute to have googled it up.
In fact, my psychiatrist at the time gave me this diagnosis. It may sound scary a lil but the psychotic part is essentially because I had very intense irrational fears at the time that would prevent me from functioning on a daily basis. I believe (but I'm not 100% sure) that I addressed them in some of my early posts on here, but yeah one of the main ones was that I'd fear being sexually assaulted everywhere I went. Also, I was so scared there'd be attacks on public transportation so I had to stop taking it for a while and in the meantime I stopped going to school. Very dark and hectic time of my life.
Seriously super cool that you are wrestling!! I'd love a wrestlebrina lol:P
It's a shame because I've told myself many years ago that I would sign up to self defense courses of some sort to gain mad confidence and not be scared of anything.
You should post on that. I'd love it!
I remember many years ago I dated a guy who was a pro jiu jitsu and he made me lose consciousness for 10 seconds or so LOL cuz he tried on me a technique. It was pretty impressive:P
Sorry for this long reply lol:P
But thank you so so much for doing this! You have no idea how much it means to me! I even told the people close to me! It doesn't happen everyday to meet such cool and sweet people like you seem to be!
I adore Steemit so much! Writing on here is a passion for me! In all honesty, it's rare that I find people who are truly genuine on here and are not on it for the monetary rewards, and it makes me super happy that you found my profile and that I found yours because you post epic content! And it's not everyday I stumble upon amazing content on here either.
Buckle up shawty, I'm telling you, it's gonna be one heck of a ride!:P
My boy Aoki told me there was lots of turbulence coming your way!:P
You will see lots of changes in the person I am, my writing style, what I write about...
I was a complete different version of myself on this post than the one I am today.
Thanks so much for the song! I'll get back to you on it for sure!
One love!