I may be broken to pieces, but I haven’t forgotten that those shards are my parts worthy of being mended. Though I have been shattered, I picked myself up and modified my fragments into the upgraded version of me.
My name is…
Who would’ve thought a school assignment would break my heart?
I was in fifth grade when our teacher told us to ask our parents about our name’s origin. I was walking on cloud nine on my way home then because I was excited to know where my name came from. But the moment my father gave me the answer, my little world crushed like a slice of bread turning into crumbs.
“I got your name from nowhere,” my father said.
Thousands of tiny knives slashed at my heart, tearing it to pieces. Those six words made me question my father's love for me and even made me think I was adopted. My siblings’ names had specific origins, but my name? Never mind.
I didn’t submit the assignment the next day, afraid my classmates would laugh at me. When I got home on that same day, I saw my father smiling at me, saying, “I named you after my favorite actress, Julie Ann Fortich. I was just kidding yesterday.”
I cried when I heard that, realizing my father was a terrible joker.
The Truths I Found Out
Sugar, spice and everything nice created three perfect little girls—The Powerpuff Girls. But my parents’ love for each other, and their sacrifices and struggles, created an imperfect girl—me. And from what I know, I comprise my parents' genotype; it is only recently that I've discovered my entire identity is a lie.
Yes, I'm still my parents' masterpiece, but I've mutated into something else through the years. Who am I? No one knows, even me… until today.
Growing up, although I did not literally "GROW UP" (I'm only five feet tall. I'm not even sure), I've figured out that I'm partly an introvert; a bookworm; an Otaku; a pet and nature lover; a trying hard painter and artist; a night owl because of K-drama (who isn't?); and last but not the least, a frustrated writer.
Can you imagine how my life is being a piece of everything? Trust me, it's mind-blowing. I sometimes end up sleeping the day because when I have free time, my brain would get exhausted by just thinking about how I should spend my twenty-four hours.
An Introvert
Being alone gives me solitude like that of being by the seaside, playing with the sand while subtle ocean waves crush the shore. Being an introvert made me self-reliant and not too dependent on others.
I have multiple persons living in my body. I can be the source of my happiness and stress because of the unlimited supply of fluctuating mood swings and energy I have. But I must admit, that energy easily gets drained when I’m in a crowded area, that’s why I don’t go out often.
I enjoy staying in my comfort zone—my utopia—listening to my favorite music genres. I talk little, but I could be the most talkative folk when I'm with the right people. I can empty the ink of several pens in one sitting if my mood allows me to vent out all the emotions I've been hoarding in my squeamish heart.
Watching K-dramas and animes has been my escape from the actual toxic world filled with disingenuous, abusive people who take advantage of my push-over attitude—I can't say "no" to someone in need. I always want to be of help to others, yet those I've helped would still have the guts to stab my back. Being inspired by the characters I watch, I, now, have learned how to be vigilant in knowing who to help and not.
Trying hard painter and artist
I wasn’t born affluent, so I was used to drawing with broken crayons growing up. But despite that gloomy childhood memory, I never stopped my passion for drawing. I kept on believing that one day, I could get myself a box of a complete crayon set. And I have kept that promise; I’m even able to buy myself some canvas and acrylic paint with a sketch pad and colored pens.
My once dull and dingy life as a child is now filled with the colors of the rainbow, for it has been painted with the colors of friendship with shades of bitter-sweet experiences, giving it the right blend of hues for my perfect worth-enjoying existence.
Pet and Nature Photographer
I’m always fascinated by the wonders of nature. That’s why whenever I see unusual things, I take a photo of them because it’s not every day that I get the chance to see such beauty.
Bookworm
I learned to read at five, thanks to my mother. But I fell in love with books when I was eight when I finished reading the Mythology book written by Edith Hamilton. Reading the pages of that book made me travel to Troy and witness the death of Achilles. I was also there when the Sphinx committed suicide because Oedipus answered her riddle. I had felt Cupid’s heartbreak when Psyche listened to her sisters about betraying him, and when Orpheus traveled to the land of the dead to ask Hades to return his wife Eurydice.
Reading has helped me improve my social skills by meeting various characters in a story, not by mingling with actual people (it's still my waterloo). It gives me the chance to travel anywhere without leaving my room and without spending a single coin since I can’t afford to buy a plane ticket to fly to any expensive tourist destination.
I just wish I could travel more on the pages of the books sitting on my shelves.
Frustrated Writer (No More)
I was a graduate of Education and a passer of the Licensure Examination for Teachers, but the lion’s part of my heart always belongs to writing. My mother wanted me to be a teacher, so I took the course to make her happy; unfortunately, she passed away when I was only in first-year college.
My father was also encouraging me to pursue my career as an educator, yet I was still very open to him about my love for writing. But just as I was embracing his request of me becoming a full-fledged teacher, he passed away, giving me yet another wound that would forever stay with me.
My parents were always the ones who stood beside me when receiving my recognitions since kindergarten, and I was devastated when my college graduation came, but neither of them was even there to see me graduate with flying colors.
I was so broken about their sudden passing that I pour my heart out on pieces of paper that had turned flavescent because of time. When they died, I promised them that no matter what happens, I’ll never give up on my dream of becoming a writer, even if it takes time.
I have fulfilled their dream for me, and I’m also determined to follow where my heart leads. However, my parents’ death left me in the shadows for a while, and I lost all hopes of recovering. But then one day, upon receiving an email I wasn’t expecting, I slowly regained vitality.
The short story I submitted to a publisher found its place in an anthology, making it an official entry for the book. That saved me from being drowned in the sea of sorrow because of losing the two most important people in my life.
Because of writing, I was able to escape the dungeons of unknown misery. Because of writing, I was able to free myself from the cocoon of hopelessness, turning me into a butterfly—giving me another chance to experience life having a different perspective.
Although my beloved parents may no longer see that I've achieved my dream, I know they're proud of what I have become. I will always be grateful that they are my parents, and I will always dedicate all my achievements to them. After all, I am their creation—their imperfect girl.
I'm reading this many months too late to upvote, but it's really nice to get to know you better, @idlemind! You are a very complex person, and have had many challenges in your life. It's very impressive how you have found your way, even when losing your parents while still young. I really reading this. You are a gifted writer.
Thank you so much admin @jayna. Hearing that compliment from you inspires me to keep writing. I would say that my capacity as a writer will never be equal to yours, but I'm beyond happy that someone more knowledgable and experienced has noticed my potential.
Thank you for sharing,
When you wrote this, it is like I am there with you feeling and seeing what you express. You brought the words to life, dancing around with all their colour.
I hope you pursue your dreams as a creator of literature. The way you write is inspiring, and find myself sitting in a new world of thought and emotion, yearning to ready more.
I'm glad that you appreciate my post. Thank you so much, it means a lot. This is enough encouragement to never stop believing.
I'm glad that you appreciate my post. Thank you so much, it means a lot. This is enough encouragement to never stop believing.
Thanks for sharing kabayan! Welcome to Hive
Thank you po for the welcome.
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Thank you for the welcome.
Welcome to Hive.
This is an introduction? It's beautifully written. You've achieved so much and In your imperfection, you are magnificent.
Your parents would be so proud of you. I can't wait to follow up with your content here.
Thank you for the compliment. =)
I really wish they are.
Welcome to Hive Julie! Finally you are here.
So this is why it took so long. The intro's amazing and it speaks a lot. For sure you will find your space here, feel free to roam around. Express and impress folks here and enjoy your stay.
If you get lost elsewhere, send me or April a message.
Thanks! It took me a while cuz I don't know how to get started. I just tried my luck on this one. =)
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Thank you. I'll check it out later.
Hi Julie! This is really a beautiful introduction. Very personal. I can relate to al ot of things and while I was reading all I can see is myself. Tight hugs to you I know your parents are very proud of you.
Thank you. I just hope that they could really see me now.
I'm glad that someone was able to relate to me because it's really difficult to open up. Sending hugs.
What a smashing intro! Bravo! Welcome to the HIVE blockchain! 😊
Thank you for the warm welcome =)
What a wonderful introduction with so many flowers from the words. You played the words to introduce yourself in a sassy way.
Oh, your father seems to have good humor for you to believe like you cried out. Anyway, welcome po, from Visayas here.
Thank you for the compliment po.
Where in Visayas are you? My father was from Iloilo, and my mother was born in Southern Leyte.
Oh? I'm from Southern Leyte din po, a town next to Maasin where the only city in the province.
I've been hearing Maasin from mama before po. I just can't remember if she's from Maasin or Pandan? I'm not sure cuz I haven't been there yet po.
Pnadan? Not sure if it's a town or Barangay because I haven't heard of a town named like that.
I'm not sure as well, but I think it's a village name po.
Ah okay po, let's just leave that way, ahaha, anyway nice to meet yah. jehehe
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:) kumusta? what's ur favorit anime or character? Welcome to hive and now u have another place to share ur writing skills. if u have any question about hive or anything, just ask..
-fellow introvert
Hi 😊. I have plenty of anime crushes: Gaara, Shikamaru, Neji, Sai, Kakashi (from Naruto); Kuro (from Servamp); Gojo Satoro (from Jujutsu Kaisen) atbp
Basta masyado silang marami.
:P i see. I haven't really watched much Naruto, but I like anime like Attack on Titan, Berserk, Gantz, and Fist of North Star is my favorite. I would say Raoh is my favorite character, not Kenishiro. (but he's cool, too)
Haven't watched those you mentioned, except AOT. I like Eren and Armin
😍
My man, I mean titan 🤣
@idlemind I wasn't wrong when I thought I was reading a girl in my story. I am not sure though, whether I should feel sorry for your losses or happy for your achievements. I can't say 'welcome to Hive', because I am still a newbie who joined this site in the last week of November '21. I wish you all the best! 👍
Either feeling will do 😆
I was on board on November 1st ^_^, twenty days before you did.
So I have first Filipina to my list of friends on this site :)
How did you even know?
Are you a psychic or something? 😆
I know a few on other sites (Now closed) and I know a few names of your cities like Manila, Davao, and the ones mentioned in the comments.
Nice.
You're quite keen. Salute! 😄
^_^ and this one is an absolute telltale sign that comes from Philippines :)
hi Julie (?) Idlemind 🤗I came straight to your intro after reading A Bone's Wish... I wanted to get to know you a bit better. This is a wonderful intro post... so much depth and talent you have. I am truly sorry to hear about your parents. That must have been very hard for you at critical times in your life.
Having read your intro, I am really happy I took the time. I love writing too... it allows me to feel and experience deeply and play with words... some of my favourite things in the world. My happy place is the mountains although I do also enjoy time at the coast. I look forward to reading more of you 💗 !LUV !ALIVE !PIZZA
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@samsmith1971 hello. Thank you for taking the time to read my intro post and my story. Thank you as well for the tip and the token. If writing were person, I could've married it.
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