I can appreciate most of your story, having lived paycheck to paycheck most of your life. The cam part isn't something I have experienced. Probably because no one wants to watch an overweight epileptic 37 year old guy perform sexual acts on himself.... Lol
Anyway, thankyou for opening up, it was definitely an enlightening read, and I pray that Steemit brings you the change of lifestyle you are aiming for :)
Hey @mstaader, yeah camming is probably only something a relatively small part of the population have gotten into, at least on the performance side. It's probably an industry of 80%+ women.
Opening up is the only way to get it out, and this seems like a good platform to do it. I know my parents won't be on here, and I don't really want them to know about this. I pride myself in not asking them for help, and I think they might be devastated to read what I wrote here. Maybe someday...
In any case, thanks so much for listening to my story. I'm glad it added some light. Light can even come from weird, dark places, and that is an amazing thing :)
xo
I'm not sure if you're familiar with a singer by the name of David Draiman... But this song came to mind reading your reply.
if the original is too heavy for your musical tastes, there is an acoustic cover