Darkness became light again!
There are moments in your life when you feel you are on top of the world and there are moments you feel like you drowned in the most bottomless pit of hell. Somewhere in between, there is life and the things that come along on your path to guide you to where you need to be!
The darkness was never my best friend. In fact, I hated the night with a deep passion and I would do anything to keep the lights on or to stay away from the dark as much as possible. I dared not close my eyes when night had fallen nor to turn off the light in the corner of my room. I did not feel safe in my room with the curtains closed and the night was master of the world around me.
I felt like the shadows were always creeping up on me, trying to wrap their tentacles around me to pull me into the fires of hell or maybe even worse, into my nightmares. The cold was making me shiver even when the heater was on, or the flames of the candles next to me shared their warmth to my room. Haunted, chased, pushed towards fear because of the demons that still roamed my mind from the past!
Sleep, something I did not get much during that time in my life. I had to go to school, to work at a later stage of my life and there was no way for me to catch some sleep during the days. I accepted this because I felt I could not change the way I was feeling toward the one thing that scared me so much. The darkness of the night!
Fear is something I never really understood nor could I place my finger on the real starting point in my own life where fear took over from me loving the long walks into the night, streets in silence, a world I enjoyed. This fear took away my power to enjoy everything that came after the sunset in the evenings; it turned my life upside-down in the worst ways. While the days seemed short, the nights were neverending.
The evil that roamed on my mind grew with every day that passed during those years. It sucked the energy out of my veins like a vampire or demon with sharp fangs and claws. I was not ready to face my fear, and I kept feeding myself more lies to convince myself that my angst was real. The more I told myself to be scared the more things I started to see in the shadows of the darkness.
Until that one particular moment in my life! That marvelous experience where everything changed for me.
Curled up under my blanket with my pillow pressed against my face, I stared into the darkness of the room until I finally fell asleep. In my dream I was running on the street, wearing a mask to hide who I was. As always, the demons knew who I was, and tracked me down. I tried to escape, but their sharp nails sliced open my chest, back and ripped off the mask. Panic turned me into a scared little mouse, and I kneeled down as if I was submitting myself to their powers.
I remember feeling this strange warmth covering my forehead when I lifted my head to look up at the demon before me. I was ready to meet the eyes of my nightmare again, but this time something felt different. The warmth turned into heat and started to spread all over my body. I could hear a heartbeat in the distance coming closer with every beat until there was this flash of bright light and I was pushed back into the nothingness of my dream. The next thing I remember is hearing a voice.
"Open your eyes and look at me." I recognized the voice, but I could not place it. I opened my eyes, and I was 100% sure that I was awake. A warm hand put on my head, and slowly the fingers started to trail a path over my cheek while piercing eyes looked deeply into mine. I was frozen in my bed yet not scared at all. "Don't fear the darkness! Don't fear the darkness." At first, he kept repeating those words like a broken record but, every time he said it, I could feel something change inside me.
It amazed me that I felt no fear whatsoever for this person in my room. A ghost, an angel, I had no clue until he placed his hand on my heart. I saw myself as a little three-year-old girl crawling up against this large males chest. His big hands and arms wrapped around me and a soft kiss placed upon my head. He whispered some sweet words into my ear, and all I did was giggle and smile. I realized that this man who spoke to me was my grandfather. The strong man who died when I was almost four years old.
"You are never alone in the dark, never fear the dark my child." His words, I can still hear them when I close my eyes. I could not move, but I wanted to hold his hand. He stood up, flashed me his pearly white smile I only knew from pictures before he walked towards the door. The moment he reached his hand for the knob he looked over his shoulder and spoke the words one more time. "Never fear the dark, I am always there!" He disappeared into the door like a shadow.
I jumped out of my bed, almost tripping over the blanket. I ran to the door and opened it, ran down the stairs but my grandfather, the man who was taken from us too soon, was gone. My grandfather was gone. Back to his grave, back to Heaven where he lived for such a long time.
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When I walked back into my room, I noticed that something had changed. Not in my bedroom but, something inside me. I did see the darkness in my room, but it no longer scared me. I did not even shiver at the thought that I just had a conversation of sorts with a dead person, a ghost. Something that would have scared me to no end if I had known beforehand.
For the first time in many years, I closed the curtains and curled up in my bed covering only half of my body. While I was still wondering about everything that had just happened, I dozed off into one of the best sleep I ever had. My dream was bright and full of laughter, and when I woke up the next morning, I could not say if it was all just a dream or if it was all real.
Slowly my life changed, and I went outside again into the darkness of the night, knowing that somewhere close to me there was someone to protect me, to guide me.
I still have nightmares, yet they no longer have a grip on me. I crushed my fear for the darkness that night with the help of an angel sent from above. My grandfather, my hero!
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What a dream is that, or a nightmare? But it becomes a nice dark artwork. As your grandfather said "Don't afraid of darkness". Thanks for sharing this experience with us. :)
It was not just a dream! It was very real! :D
Have a marvelous day my sweet friend!
We should chat again soon!
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Snekky
I also dream something like that. Like I was living it... like real...
I had terrible cold, I am recovering now. We should chat on discord soon.
@poeticsnake In Order For the light to Shine So Brightly , The Darkness Must be Present :)
I could not agree more with you! :D
Thank you for leaving a reply!
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Snekky
I also love this quote x
One of my favorite quotes @davinshi. Wonderful story. Makes me miss my grandfather.
Death is not a certain end. I lost my mother when I was four. I believe our love one watching us from somewhere . While I grove up every night at the same time I saw a same dream. My mother stood beside my bed with wonderful smile in her face and floral dress on. She gave me strength to cary on. Not afraid of anything.
I think it was not a dream for you either. I think she was there for real, holding your hand!
<3 <3
Much love.
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Snekky
Very nice. jerrybanfield story writing blog ghosts post needs to be seen by everyone so I shared the post and liked the post and commented the vote......@steemitraj
Thank you ever so kindly!
That is much appreciated for sure!
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Snekky
Such an fantastic dream; better writing skills;
With above both things contribution will be create amazing production. I saw your created amazing production. Best wishes!
Thank you ever so kindly!
Your words mean a lot and are greatly appreciated!
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Snekky
Beautiful and now I am remembering my grandfather that passed away when I was 10! @poeticsnake thank you very much for sharing your experience with us so that we are able to enjoy it with you! I will send a vote and resteem to help more of us find it!
Thank you for taking the time to read my story! I just had to write it when I saw your post! It was the first thing I thought about while reading your words! Thank you for the coming vote and re-steem. That means a lot!
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Snekky
Snekky my pleasure I just resteemed!
Glad to managed to come to terms with your demons and found your way out, @poeticsnake. Keep up your good work sharing and many may follow!
Thank you so so so much!
Lief van je om ff een reply te droppen! Super bedankt!
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Snekky
wow, wouuld love to share my experience. i can remember while growing up. a couple of times, my mom would ask me to go get something inside (usually at night and when power/electricity has been interrupted) i would run in and ruun out cuz i was scared of darkness and the unknown.
but fast forward to now, i dont get to run again cuz whatt i was afraid of then, never really existed...
a lot of us now put up that fear even before we try out something and in the end, we fail @ it or end up not doing it at all. but in reality, we would have overcome.
quite an educative post i must say. and i must say to all steemians, "master your fear" and you would overcome
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Thank you ever so kindly!
I am glad you do not run anymore!
It makes us tired to fight something we fear that is not there to begin with!
Have a blessed day!
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Snekky
Hey snekky, You've nicely wrote about The darkness of the night. Yep...well explained..Awesome creativity. Successful dreamy.
Thank you ever so kindly!
Your support is much appreciated!
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Snekky
Your dreaming story reminder me my childhood.Seriously I love those period @poeticsnake. Challenger work you done.
Thank you ever so kindly!
Much appreciated!
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Snekky
I feel that, I also remember my past
Ah you think darkness is your ally? You merely adopted the dark. I was born in it, molded by it. I didn't see the light until I was already a man, by then it was nothing to me but blinding!
Hahaha
Thanks for sharing this, sick writing skills:)
Once there darkness can always present a beautiful light ... your post reminds me also into the journey of my life ... and I really enjoy your writing because his touch can also come to my heart and have brought me also to the past ... outside usual ... I wish you healthy always .. thanks for the inspiration .. i will resteem to my friends .. post this.
Wow, such a beautiful story.thank you very much for sharing information .i like your post .@poeticsnake
HORRIBLE story
I like to see your awesome writing story & thanks a lot to share this content with us.
Sir, did you post this @jerrybanfield? Or on another topic?
This post is written for a contest of @jerrybanfield!
You can find the contest on his page!
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Snekky
okay sir!
Please, I am not a Sir. I am a female! LOL
LOL! How can I call?😁
very nice story @poeticsnake it reminds the dark past of my life experience when I was young, very nice story keep up the good work
Beautifully written. There's always hope. We just need to believe in it :) I hate the cliche but in order to become stronger we have to go through things...and I say that as I'm going through my own battles now. On the other side there will be light :) That's what we must believe in.
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Wow, this is so beautifully written! Personally, I lost my grandfather just a few years back, so the revelation at the end there made me tear up a little. Keep writing - you have a great penmanship!
By the way, I wrote a story for the contest as well - feel free to check it out and give it an upvote! Thank you! :)
https://steemit.com/jerrybanfield/@stevensteel/a-second-chance-entry-for-supernatural-writing-contest-by-jerry-banfield
Very nice
@poeticsnake I followed carefully your perception of what is the darkness of the night and I felt identified. After passing the darkness we have the certainty that the new morning will come with a bright clarity that will blind us. With love
Wow @poeticsnake, you amazed me with your powerful writing skills. I want to read more ;)
Superb imaginations and usage of words, It caught my heart and mind.
I am looking forward for more scifi stories so as your supernatural writings.
Keep steeming.
Keep inspiring.
@kim 24 is also writing post about life stories, I can use your gente in my future blogs:)
Great work
thank you very much for sharing information @jerrybanfield
My grandfather died 10 days ago. This post reminded me of him. This is beautifully written dear. Love it <3
That's a very beautiful story @poeticsnake.
Nice post
That's a really gripping and powerful story. I find it even more potent because it was your grandfather who had died a long time ago who came to you and shifted something for you. Thanks for sharing <3 Our ancestors do watch over us and sometimes help us in our greatest times of need.
I think this is a motivation and experience that is very valuable to me when you want to share stories about difficult experiences and life.
and this is very very useful information both in running every life spin of life
therefore thank you from me for you on this matter. poeticsnake
Hi @jerrybanfield I really like what you write, I hope you more successful in steemit I just started in steemit let's upvote and follow me to support me clik @azwarazima maybe we can share each other stories and experiences here
very interesting story for the meaning in life.
congratulations for you because it has become my inspiration in learning meaning of life @poeticsnake
harika
Amazing photos 👏👏👏
I read about you on quora and love this one. i'll feel lucky if you like my posts :)
Great Art, she got happy for sure :)
Its very hard to get over a experience like that, not everyone can and most people wont ever forget about it either. Let the light shine on you and embrace the light, let the dark fade away and it shall stay that way.
Incredible dream, I had such a life changing dream once - got me off drugs for good.
Thank you for the inspiration
This is one of the scariest things to do in life. Surrendering to your powerlessness is essentially surrendering the death, but it is at that moment that something miraculous can happen, like you described.
When I was reading your post, I was just skimming through it, but once I read this part, something changed in me. I read the whole thing from top the bottom as precisely as I could. I felt like I resonated with it. I don't have an extreme fear of the dark, but I related to what you said but in a different context.
I remember being extremely depressed in life. I struggled for year but there came a point where I essentially gave up trying to fight it and just sank into it defenseless. It was extremely scary but gave birth to such an incredible insight and healing in my mental health. I can't help but compare that moment where you submitted to stronger powers and only then experienced a life changing scenario. That is what happened it me. It was on the cusp of death and defeat, but surrendering to it brought a miracle instead. All of my suffering and anxiety just vanished in a few seconds; as if I never suffered to begin with. What an experience.
Now I am facing another manifestation of that and your writing triggered the same realization again. Thanks for reminding me of something extremely important!
Love your writing x Hi, from Australia :)
this post reminds me some nightmares !
what a wonderful story.. I was just writing about this in my submission.. that we may not understand exactly what happens or why things happen,, but they do their work form the inside out...
Wow, I love this
Nice work, really special experience.
Upvoted and Resteemed by the MAP-AAKOM community.
In Tibetan Buddhism many so-called demons are not actually evil, they are often protectors of knowledge or tests for the individual to overcome fears - once overcome, the demon is seen in a new light.
I mention this to be helpful, but am not absolutely clear whether your demon turned into your grandfather, or if they were two different beings.