Exactly!
"A kind of evidence that, "existence" is more than merely a certain amount of heartbeats and then when it stops you disappear forever."
These are such a powerful words. We had 3 back to back deaths in our family last year. Just 20 minutes ago I found the news of death of sister of my grandfather who passed away 2 months ago right after 3 months of my grandmother passed away.
These back to back deaths of such closed family members made me think much about the reality and end of life. And it's becomes scary sometimes that we all gonna end up same way and don't know what's next!!
I understand you so well. It often takes the loss of a close friend or relative to wake us up to the reality of our own mortality. Of course it is is a choice, but I am pretty much certain that there is more to our existence than merely this one. I have survived death on three occasions and each time I did not have fear but the sensation I was going home.
My condolences.
I just wish it might end up with peace for everyone.
I hope so too my good fellow