You write beautifully! The emotions you're feeling come right off the page, they feel as if they are my own.
In my life I have come to understand that this place is about balance. The old adage "There's a light at the end of the tunnel" is true, but unfortunately one they don't say (because it's not uplifting and inspirational) is that we will always have another tunnel to go through. And on and on this process repeats in life.
I was talking with a friend the other day about balance. I had recently read about people who were practicing 'neutrality'. Apparently if you live your life in neutral you will never have to suffer or feel sorrow. But what is the other side of that? You will also never feel pleasure or joy. I have suffered and felt great sorrow in my life, but I would not trade away my joy to change that. Living in neutral, that's not living.
My heart and thoughts and love is with you! Big hugs!!
Thank you for the compliments, and more importantly, the support! I do very much appreciate those comments on neutrality. And I agree 100%! I hope that I don't have to live my whole life in neutral, but maybe only a week or two (best case scenario) as a survival skill. I'm not sure I can ever truly be "neutral"...but the not living in the diagnosis...that was an essential shift that I so needed in order to just breathe. Thank you, thank you for the support! And the thoughts on neutrality. Another new revelation for me to contemplate!
Aw, you're welcome, actually I read the one about "your best day" and I couldn't even comment on it at the time I was too busy being a blat baby, haha! Even when I was relating it to my husband.
But yes, I really love the 'not living in the diagnosis' it's a great way to be :)
Oh I'm touched by that comment! Thank you. I think that's been my favorite to write just because it was so easily inspired by him. If you could only see him...he's literally the most beautiful child! I can say that because he's not of my DNA. Oh his eyelashes are to die for...