I think it has also to do with the fear of losing the security of comfort. You think you will not be able to survive due to a level of comfort there is. It takes a very strong person, as I am sure you are, to get through such tough situations. I am in the position like you said in the post where I think, if this should happen to me, I would not be able to cope. It scares me to think about these type of things. Thank you for sharing your story. :) I am glad she is still with you!