Seems like you pulled the shitty short straw. I've had a similar experience but as others have said, don't just sit there and wallow in the shit that was dealt you. Do whatever you can to fix your family and get your kid back. You can't let anyone else raise your son, you don't know what they'll do. Meditate, change your surroundings, do whatever it takes to be able to make it through the day.
We are going to see a counselor on Friday. I spent the last few days drunk and angry. It is about time we did something to try and fix it. I don't want to give up on our chance at a happy family. I was so stupid for thinking for even a second Nathan would be better off without me. Your right, any dickhead could end up getting a say in his life then. Didn't even think of that.
All the encouragement, understanding and compassion I have felt on Steemit the last few days really made the differance between me going to a bad place and me going to a terrible one. Thanks
Good luck bro, keep us updated.