Hehe yea I would say I get tired at certain times, I'm glad I can document my non-flow and glad you are a keen observer. I'm into sociology and psychology as well. Much of the impact is environment, luckily the house here is a safe zone for the most part. More time outside lately too which is clearing the mind, trying to not burnout as much with work also in the last days. Sometimes I just post when I'm super tired to keep up the steemit rituals
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Haha! I TOTALLY understand. I am (voluntarily) borderline agoraphobic. Lately, only been going outside every TWO days. However, you also need to consider that I am living in (literally) a post war torn country which is slipping gradually BACKWARDS into autocracy, and the population here has NO CLUE what is going on. Imagine yourself in THAT situation, and then you will likely be able to appreciate AT LEAST being in the US where there is SOME semblance of functionality (the basics). The POINT I am trying to make is that all of the talk about "positive thinking" and "things are what you make of them" DOESN'T hold up in my book, when you look PRAGMATICALLY at the REAL WORLD. That is, do you think that people living through totalitarian, mass killing regimes (in far and recent) history questioned whether or not the environment was a factor in their general mental state??? I think not. Unfortunately, it WASN'T an OPTION for people living through those experiences to "opt out" and choose to be "voluntarily agoraphobic". In fact, in ALL of those situation "voluntary agoraphobia" was punishable by SWIFT execution. So I guess ONE of my points here is AT LEAST those of us who CHOOSE to be "agoraphobic" have the FREEDOM to do so... AT LEAST, that is, for NOW...
I do consider myself very lucky, with my mom with schizophrenia growing up she helped me to feel what that could be like. Although I cannot imagine your exact situation. I was able to be in touch with some extreme emotion and paranoia and survive it. I feel lucky to not have been put on medication. Basically I feel like a junkie without an addiction knowing if I had a serious addiction it would likely destroy me. Luckily yes the ground where I am in this Country is allot safer. It's more like seeing weak decadence of consumerism. Many useless buildings are build for bogus products. Knowing the history tells you they committed genocide, ecocide, and cultural genocide in order to 'build' this 'country'. I should be lucky to freak out now, with such intense of emotion it may seem a freak show, I can feel it. I like that how my mom told me their were people out to kill us, brainwash our family...it wasn't real but real enough...still based in reality. But yes people are captured by the language and thought of the culture and may not know how to question it, they would have to feel uncomfortable first. How can we taint the culture with distaste to let people know they can riot for a better or different way. Yes most people are stubborn and say they hate change. It's a toughie. Still the only way to be positive is to stay on the sunny side of morbid!! It's nice to lash back at a apocalyptic/defeatist culture with a good measure of positive uplift!! Yet it could only be a tangible hope that could prevail, people would need a good reason to cheer up or they won't.
Oh wells, who cares what I say sometimes, you are basically the only internet friend I have and am grateful. Helping me wake up and be productive some, thanks.
Perhaps yes much of the anxiety I can feel is from the stagnation realization towards these repulsive 1st world problems. I want to taste the bitter without having to get bitter. The better whine from the bitter vine? I realize I'm lucky to be at least poor but also in a good place, yes
You could message me on twitter and I can reveal my email to you there. Use email regular. With my anxiety I feel like I won't be satisfied until the entire world changes for the better. I'm ready for it, get political
Haha! I just try to give experiential insight when I see people "struggling". I am super-busy right now AND I think the IDEAL mode of communication right now is right here is the JUICY "comment" section of these pots. I think this is an IDEAL length at which to communication. Different situations are BEST served by different MODES and DEGREES of communication. I often find CHAT to be W-W-W-Wayyyyyy to FAST for me these days, and so I only chat with people if it is absolutely necessary. TOO MUCH INPUT... I think that MOST people's MAIN issue right now is the OVERWHEMING effect of TOO MUCH info coming in TOO FAST, and from TOO MANY people. They key, in my opinion, is to "control the bandwidth"... Perhaps something for contemplation as you work through future posts...
Ya for sure, if the need arises for communication elsewhere it's available. I gotta be in a certain mood for chat mode myself for sure. That's right slow it down a little! I feel we are getting somewhere here in the comment section too. Feeling a good roll starting! I'll be glad to get into some different modes in the next days. That's a good one 'control the bandwidth' !