Most of the time happy people are the ones going through something serious and sad. I understand how it feels when you can no longer understand what's on your mind. It is effin' scary. Especially if it can do you harm without you knowing. I hope you can find comfort through blogging same as you do when jotting it down on your notebook. Blogging worked for me. There is a scientific explanation to it which tackles about the elevation of brain chemicals responsible to make us happy. We are here for you and to comfort you virtually! We'll surpass this :)
You are right @hundredlbsbeauty. People who show a lot of positivity are usually the people who have suffered a great deal. And I feel that you know where I am coming as you, yourself have gone through the same challenges too. Thank you for the kind words of encouragementm it is very much appreciated. 😊